I have a confession to make. Last week I thought about quitting HOLSTRit. I added up all my inventory I have in stock and figured out if I sold 75% of it, would we get our money back out of it. I didn’t do this because I wanted to quit or because I didn’t like what I was doing, I did it because I had lost focus. Even as I was adding up my inventory I knew I wasn’t going to quit, I just panicked.
I had become overwhelmed with the pressure I was putting on myself to be the wife and mother I thought I needed to be, to be the entrepreneur I think I should have turned into by now and mad at myself for being too tired to do any of it the way I thought it needed to be done. These impossible expectations were self-inflicted, unnecessary and draining.
This weekend my husband and I went to a marriage conference here in town called Weekend To Remember. It has been over 10 years since we’ve done anything like this for our marriage and even though, (logistically speaking because of lack of child care), it was a bit of a battle to get there the timing couldn’t have been more perfect. I recommitted to putting God and my family first and immediately felt the load I was carrying lighten. Whatever success this business has will have to be up to God and when I quit is up to Him too. I know this business can either be a curse or a blessing and today I’m choosing blessing.